Something Gone Wrong?

The most peculiar day is arriving, December 25. Where people start to come together and eat together; where people give gifts, and kids carols with hymns. The day when we celebrate a peculiar person's birth who "saved" the world by dying on the cross. The weirdest holiday is arriving and I really want to talk about how it became the weirdest and yet the most celebrated.

First of all, Christmas is actually a pagan festival (I forgot the main details but you can try to search it for validity) and this pagan festival was getting bigger and being engaged even by the Christians. So the Council did was to transform this pagan festival into a day of celebration, the question was what celebration? Jesus Christ Birth! And it became a great success and now we have Christmas! Then this "Savior" comes through a virgin birth (Yes, a baby was formed without any sexual intercourse), I guess the Savior should have an honorable birth and with a great herd of people and a great birth place. WRONG! The "Savior" was given birth in manger! Full of animals! There's no thing to place the baby into so they wrapped the baby with cloth and put Him into a feeding through. Then some of this shepherd guys came and said God send them to praise the baby. Well that wasn't even into my mind about praising something, a baby as a God! I don't think so. Then when Jesus is about 2 to 3 years old there's this wise men who gave gifts; gold, frankincense, and myrrh. There's another peculiar thing I'm disturbed at. Jesus knowing He lived for Him to die. Yes, you read it right He lived to die. Not He lived for him to live. Throughout the 33+ years He lived that mindset "He lived for Him to die". And I tell you that isn't an easy thing for you not to commit suicide. "Well that's all the weirdness of Jesus right?" WRONG! When He lived, He lived full of strange things. He broke the Sabbath the thing He made, He touched so many unclean things, talked to a Samaritan, scrubbed the disciples feet, and telling people that He and the Father (What the Jews knew who was Yahweh) are one. The prophets prophesied that Jesus will be a King! As what we know a king when he comes we are to serve him right? For Jesus He came for Him to serve! Normally we serve a king, but here the King (The Kings of Kings actually) serves us. 

The greatest and the most peculiar of them all is Him (a King, sinless) on a cross (punishment for the greatest of sinners). Yet this wasn't a sign of defeat but an accomplishment of a mission. For Him to be defeated for us to accomplish, for Him to be cursed for us to be blessed, for Him to be full of unrighteousness for us to be full of righteousness, for Him to be punished and for us to be spared from it,for Him to be disowned and for us to be owned as children of God, and lastly for Him to be unloved for us to be loved. He did this for us, the greatest and wretched of sinners (who actually put Him on a cross). 

"We're all oddballs, but God loves us anyway" -Philip Yancey

"God love was revealed among us in this way: 

God sent His One and Only Son into the world 

so that we might live through Him. 

Love consist in this: not that we loved God, but 

that He loved us and sent His Son to be the 

propitation of our sins." -1st John 4:9-10

A Little Bit High

Insanity has manifest in me; it corrupted every single cell in my body.  I hallucinate every second, and every day. Many days of torture and delight, I tried to stop yet it came back. Should I really stop this corrupted delight or this sinful delicacy? People thought that I am normal, a regular person, yet they don’t know that I am a statute of insanity. How this insanity began? I don’t know. Should I end it? I don’t know. Can I tell you? I don’t really know if I can.

Dead flowers and streams of cuddly stuffed-toy bear; kiss the morning light by looking at her eyes. I can’t believe this feeling I have towards her, why is this? I haven’t experience this dreadful delight in my lifetime. It’s so miserable to experience this magical feeling, every time I see her it’s like the world stops and her pathways are full of stars and her face brightens up like the morning day. I always imagine looking at her eyes, holding her hands, and seeing her smile. I just want to be with her forever somewhat that is the downside. I can’t have her, I can’t see her always, and she had her choice. I have displayed all of my love to her. Now I really understand the song “Now” by MYMP. “Loving is not owning, you can let me go…” Love is a choice between the two parties, it’s my choice to love her it’s her choice to love me back. She didn’t choose to love me back, and I respect that. Love can exist even it is one sided, yet that perhaps the hardest love we can experience but it may be the most delightful too. You can’t force someone to love you, for love is something that is decision with the mind and the heart.

“Love consists in this: not that we loved God but that he loved us
and sent His One and Only Son into the world to be the
propitiation for our sins.” -1^st John 4:10

The best example of a one-sided love is God’s love for us. If you have read the bible cover to cover, you will just see a picture of a guy deeply in love with a prostitute (like Hosea’s story). God portrayed His love by letting Hosea (His prophet to the people) marry Gomer (a prostitute). We can see in the consecutive verses that Gomer was unfaithful to Hosea but you will see how God’s one-sided love been shown to Gomer (allegorically Israel) through Hosea and spoke to their children (the next generation of Israelites).

“I will take you to be My wife forever, I will take you to be My wife
in righteousness, justice, love, and compassion. I will take you to
be my wife in faithfulness, and you will know Yahweh… I will sow
her in the land for Myself, and I will have compassion on
No Compassion (or Lo-ruhamah); I will say to Not My People
(or Lo-ammi): You are my people, and he will say,
’You are My God.’” –Hosea 2:19-20,23

I can describe this love as quite insane, because if you know that you will marry a prostitute and love her with all of your life and still you know she will be unfaithful to you. It will just be a tiring process and an endless cycle of hurt in the lover’s part not to the prostitute; but that’s how God loves us! Even He knows that after seconds I will sin, He still loves me and still want me to be his wife. This is how amazing God’s love can be.

“But God proves His own love for us in that while we were
still sinners, Christ died for us!” –Romans 5:8

One word from this verse made a huge impact in how I view God’s love for me. The word “While” While I was still doing drugs, while I was killing people, while I was sexually harassing people, while I was cursing Him, while I was proving that He didn’t exist, while I was lying, while I was peaking for answer on my seatmate’s test paper, while I was eating people, and I don’t know your “While…”’s one thing I can assure you Christ died for you while you did those things. While we were unfaithful to Him still He was faithful to us, while we were cursing Him; He blessed us. I just remember how God’s compassion with those who are lost. Jesus actually told a parable that blows my mind; the parable of the lost sheep. Its mind blowing because of its illogical math, 1 is greater than 99. The Shepherd left the 99 just to find the sheep that wondered off on the flock. What if the Shepherd came back with that sheep and saw that 54 were left, yet He didn’t thought about that. He just thought about searching that one lost sheep.

I’m so thankful serving a God that isn't always or will evaluate my performance if I meet His standards (If that happen I won’t even score a thing). He is a God of compassion; joy, peace, justice, grace, and love. He doesn’t require me of anything; I don’t need to do anything to gain his satisfaction or His happiness. He is already pleased and happy with me. I’m just here to proclaim this Gospel (I’m actually not required to do it but I do it because I just want to it was my choice and He respected me with it). God has made me righteous not even my sins can remove me from my righteousness because it’s not my works that I was made righteous.

Insanity is not too bad after all; perhaps we actually should have a little dose of it once in a while. Radical love isn’t our love for Him but His love for us, a love that we can choose to respond or not. I’m still hoping she will choose me… <3

What should I write?

I just had a great and heavy lunch at a restaurant.

It was a great lunch! So great that I'll blog about it! It was a 1/3 CheeseBurger in Kenny Rogers! Being in the Philippines, commercials are deceiving. You'll see in the commercials that the burgers are big and delicious. As you buy the product, well suprise surprise smaller than a mustard seed and the taste is like bricks that you can throw to your enemy. Not in Kenny Rogers' Cheeseburger! It was enormous! Juicy in the inside! Not flabby! The burger's juice has lovely taste to it! Imagine a burger that will let you eat the vegies that is in your burger! I love the burger so muuuch! The burger was really good that we reached out the comments and suggestions paper and we wrote how awesome the burger was (and a refinement with their roast chicken sandwich). So much with burgers, let's look what we can get out from this. People can really deceive you and show you things that at first looks delicious and lovely, but at the end it leads you with a disappointed heart. We always experience this on our society that leads us to just tolerate such things, but we should understand that there is something far better than what you are receiving. Something so many people seek and couldn't find.

Matthew 11:27 NIV

“All things have been committed to me by my Father. No one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal him."

The thing we seek is with Jesus, but the question is to whom did Jesus revealed it? It actually found in the same chapter!

Matthew 11:28-30 NIV

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Let us rejoice! For what is true, eternal, and from God is revealed to those who come to Him! To those who seeks rest!

Wait! What are we looking for?

An essay that changed the way I think

I've been thinking of a topic for me to write on my essay.

I was thinking to write about what I observed with reality, because I was really inspired with my realization after my darkest months in life. I guess I'm regaining my ownself this past few days, reopening my mind to what is really important and essential. I started to read my bible without distractions and I awaken a sleeping spirit inside of me. I started to reprioritize and oppotunities came to me. Drumming, writing, studying, debating, thinking (a lot!), and speaking. It was a grateful moment for me to realize God's goodness in my life even if I stumbled.

While writing this, I was planning to say that "The reality is WE can't have what really what we want. Contenment, pleasure, or even satisfaction we can't have." I was inspired to tell you this yet I won't tell you what made write you this, yet when I was walking outside going to buy onions and garlic. I realized it's true that we can't really have everything we want, yet we have everything we need. Love.

"I realized that love doesn't need to be a fantasy, nor it be a romantic movies. Love doesn't need symbols, or cupids. Love doesn't need letters or written words (I just accidentally removed THIS and forgot to save it) Love doesn't need emphasis for it to be over the top and for people notice it. Love doesn't need philosophical description nor man's definition. Love is not just a feeling. Love is simply perfect. It doesn't need a definition for it is already been defined. If our reality today is we can't have everything we want, God gave us what er really need. Love."

A Rollercoaster Ride

Lights are gleaming, praises and shouting, the bump of the bass drum, a tap from a bestfriend, an unseen friend, shouting crowd, and a spark of jealousy?

The open sea, the open soors, the lovely bees, and the unfading colors. I'm seeing a crowd full of praises and worship, but an ekklesia full of drought and dryness. Perhaps the heart is the problem, yet of whom? The ekklesia or iglesia? I am in the midst of harvest yet the harvest is not ripe. How is this? What shall we do? Have Paul planted the seed? That Apollo watered? Where only God can make it grow? Why is this treachery in our midst? Our job is not to make them grow but plant them excellently while we water them sufficiently.

Are we in a hurry? Are we in a movie? No, we're in reality. Reality cannot be hurried nor be it a fantasy, it is something unconcieveable that makes every coco loco; but reality promises one thing, it keeps us wanting for something greater than reality. A paradise for us to be in. A dominion where in there is nothing to hurry about, nor it be just a fantasy but more than we could imagine but better for it is tangible and real. We live in a world where the are two realities. Reality of this world and of what is to come. Be ready for we're going to experience something rough as a rollercoaster ride.

"...Surely I will be with you always, to the very end of the age." -Matthew 28:20b

Words that we should hold before the big rollercoaster ride.

The night when you say "Ugh"

The swings of the tree, the rays of the sun, the rhythm of the music, and "The Mood" has begun;

Where you think of the people around you, the position you are in, your life generally, the confusions all around you, and the mistakes you made. Look around you no one is against you but you feel the whole world is on your opposition, joy is filled within you yet you feel depression that leads you to mourning, love has been displayed to you yet you feel unloved, and you know you did your best and it was the best but you think of yourself as a failure. I hate this feeling yet it opens a new way for you to be better. We're pruned plants, sculptured clay, moulded metal, and ready to face another level. God uses situations to let his sons and daughters be ready for them not to be surprised with the battles they will face. In the end of the day we have the assurance that we have won. Corruption, disease, death, darkness, and even sin has no power against us. Look ahead and our possession is in our midst. It's not gold or silver, nor pearls or gems. It's our Lord Jesus Christ. For with Him we can attain the ultimate satisfaction. Bonus features? HE got it all, prosperity, sense of humor, romance, genuine, and eternal.

BossaLove

I was saved from the pit! I rose from the dead, for your voice I heard.

How wonderful for I have already met you, the from the songs I listen to. How I longed for me to see you, and now you're just inches away. This is the first time I have experienced this, blushing red as a tomato. Your personality is a charm, it sets a light from my eyes. How lovely, words cannot explain. She knows my name, called me, and she was so glad to me. I hugged her, and it was a moment to treasure. It wasn't romance I felt, it was a sense of adornment on how she sings her songs with loveliness, gentleness, and with care like how you treat other people. Thank you Sitti Navarro. I'm glad that I had a chance to see you, but I'm looking forward to see you again. Somewhat a time where we're not in a hurry, and a cup of tea for you and me is on the table (if you don't like tea then coffee for you). Sharing stories, sharing diferrent songs, singing, and having a great time knowing each other. Too much for me to ask, but it's my heart speaking.