A Rollercoaster Ride

Lights are gleaming, praises and shouting, the bump of the bass drum, a tap from a bestfriend, an unseen friend, shouting crowd, and a spark of jealousy?

The open sea, the open soors, the lovely bees, and the unfading colors. I'm seeing a crowd full of praises and worship, but an ekklesia full of drought and dryness. Perhaps the heart is the problem, yet of whom? The ekklesia or iglesia? I am in the midst of harvest yet the harvest is not ripe. How is this? What shall we do? Have Paul planted the seed? That Apollo watered? Where only God can make it grow? Why is this treachery in our midst? Our job is not to make them grow but plant them excellently while we water them sufficiently.

Are we in a hurry? Are we in a movie? No, we're in reality. Reality cannot be hurried nor be it a fantasy, it is something unconcieveable that makes every coco loco; but reality promises one thing, it keeps us wanting for something greater than reality. A paradise for us to be in. A dominion where in there is nothing to hurry about, nor it be just a fantasy but more than we could imagine but better for it is tangible and real. We live in a world where the are two realities. Reality of this world and of what is to come. Be ready for we're going to experience something rough as a rollercoaster ride.

"...Surely I will be with you always, to the very end of the age." -Matthew 28:20b

Words that we should hold before the big rollercoaster ride.

The night when you say "Ugh"

The swings of the tree, the rays of the sun, the rhythm of the music, and "The Mood" has begun;

Where you think of the people around you, the position you are in, your life generally, the confusions all around you, and the mistakes you made. Look around you no one is against you but you feel the whole world is on your opposition, joy is filled within you yet you feel depression that leads you to mourning, love has been displayed to you yet you feel unloved, and you know you did your best and it was the best but you think of yourself as a failure. I hate this feeling yet it opens a new way for you to be better. We're pruned plants, sculptured clay, moulded metal, and ready to face another level. God uses situations to let his sons and daughters be ready for them not to be surprised with the battles they will face. In the end of the day we have the assurance that we have won. Corruption, disease, death, darkness, and even sin has no power against us. Look ahead and our possession is in our midst. It's not gold or silver, nor pearls or gems. It's our Lord Jesus Christ. For with Him we can attain the ultimate satisfaction. Bonus features? HE got it all, prosperity, sense of humor, romance, genuine, and eternal.

BossaLove

I was saved from the pit! I rose from the dead, for your voice I heard.

How wonderful for I have already met you, the from the songs I listen to. How I longed for me to see you, and now you're just inches away. This is the first time I have experienced this, blushing red as a tomato. Your personality is a charm, it sets a light from my eyes. How lovely, words cannot explain. She knows my name, called me, and she was so glad to me. I hugged her, and it was a moment to treasure. It wasn't romance I felt, it was a sense of adornment on how she sings her songs with loveliness, gentleness, and with care like how you treat other people. Thank you Sitti Navarro. I'm glad that I had a chance to see you, but I'm looking forward to see you again. Somewhat a time where we're not in a hurry, and a cup of tea for you and me is on the table (if you don't like tea then coffee for you). Sharing stories, sharing diferrent songs, singing, and having a great time knowing each other. Too much for me to ask, but it's my heart speaking.

Come back

Perhaps this months were the most crazy months I ever had.

I've stop blogging for 8 months already. Within those months I have experienced the craziest, weirdest, and the most depressing days I have encountered in my life. Having another baby in the family, entering to my college life, having a friend who drank dishwashing liquid and ate a sponge, met a girl who had a 70 to 80 checks on my list, and encountering the "Truth"

Before anything else I will be really honest, bold, and transparent yet I won't tell names. Skipping the baby part going to the after youth camp. May 23, I met her. Doing my normal thing talking to people and welcoming them to the service. I saw this girl who was texting and waiting for someone. I introduced myself and open some topics. O, I forgot for those past few months I was watching HIMYM some tv series. I asked her if she watches it and she did and boom instant blast she became my bestfriend. So we texted like all day and night. Skipping ahead to the first month of my college life. I met a classmate who had a mental breakdown on our second week of classes, and beginning to chat the girl I met 2 years ago. Now July, the most depressing days I ever encountered. I was in the midst of suicide. I came back to the dark but there was a difference, I was a light yet hidden. Somewhat I hate to live, it was tiring after encountering "The Truth". To summarize it all I was lost, and seeking for answers. Now after a walk around and listening 3 albums of Mindy Gledhill (Big fan here!) I came to realize that we all experience low times and experience that moment after all you did in life, after doing vg, doing 121, talking and welcoming to people, after the joy and fun, the refreshing, the babysitting, the hating, loving, crying, depression, promotion, studies, and family you'll go to your be, look at the ceilling and remember what you did and there's this feeling that you don't understand and makes you quite sad. I always feel that, and I know you do. People avoid this moment. Through parties, drinking, relationships, sex, and so much more just to avoid that. I got the desire to know that feeling, because it moulded me to be better (and with God's grace of course). After this people will ask me what happened and judge me or condemn me. I say only one thing. "You will surely encounter this."

Servant, Boss, and Friend

John 15:15 NIV

I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.

A boss and employee relationship is the most unintimate relationship. Why? Everything must be professional, no emotions, and no attachment. Yet, in this verse there is a big change.

Reverence
"I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's buisness..."

A boss and employee relationship is the most unintimate relationship. Your boss doesn't care about your family, or how you commute everyday, and how you eat your tuna sandwich. Morely in a servant and master relationship. That is why servants have great reverence to their master.

Grace
"Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you."

Imagine your boss going to your office and began asking about your family and the stuff. It's quite awkward right? That is the same situation that the disciples experienced with Jesus. Jesus washes their feet, visit their homes, and healed a disciple's mom. Imagine that close to a God?

"God has called us as His friends yet we were His servants. This orchestrates God's grace (by calling us friends) and our reverence (because we were still His servant but now called as friends) because you are faced with the most powerful God."

Why Love?

Love

This was the most hardest topic that I came across to. It made me wonder so much, it gave me little headaches, and made me sleep at 1 am in the morning. Yet, it's worth it. That's love. And as I write this blog at 11:50pm December 28 2013, I would just tackle three things about love.

Truth

We all wondered how true love became so magical and made us believe that it only happens in fairy tales. That's not the love I know. 

Choice

We all made a choice. Choosing from selfish love or selfless love. I did choose.

Sacrifice

We all made sacrifices for love. Is it worth it? I know it was.

And to tackle these is quite hard but so easy that it led me to a statement that I will keep for the rest of my life.

"I knew about true love, and it led me to choose. I chose, and it led me to sacrifice many things. It was worth it."

However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace. -Acts 20:24

A dangerous path

Acts 20:24 NIV
However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace

This was Paul's statement to the leaders in ephesus concerning his journey to Jerusalem. Paul was urged by the Holy Spirit to go and preach the good news of God's grace there. He knew he will face hardships and severe trials. So he spoke that statement. Let's take the verse  piece by piece for us to understand the statement he made.

"... I consider my life worth nothing to me..."
SELF-DENIAL
This is quite common to Christians, because Jesus spoke this statement to His disciples "Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me."

The statement is a perfect example of self-denial. Why? Are you willing to go to a place that you know rejection, persecution, or even death will be a consequence of you preaching of that good news? That needs alot of self-denial.

"... my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me-..."
LORDSHIP
A key essential to the christian faith. Yet, sometimes this the most ignored and the most hated. Lordship requires 100% submission to Jesus, not 99.99999% but 100%. Lordship is hard because again it needs death to self and giving our desires, dreams, and plans to Him.

Giving Him our desires, dreams, and plans is quite hard but He knows what is best for us. So He will give us much more on what we expect if give Him our desires, dreams, and plans.

"... the task of testifying to the good news of God's grace."
PURPOSE
Now our purpose here is to submit to God's authority (that requires self-denial) through making disciples.

Are you making disciples?